Bellx; a mesoamericana curandera de su misma, birthkeeper & sister, living in Boston.

  1. What does self-care mean to you? It’s self-perseveration, it's my capacity to remember my calling and why my ancestors decided to put me here right now, and any act of remembrance that happens in ritual, which is simple as coming back to a specific moment or act, like sitting with tea, or greeting the sun when it rises each morning. 
  2. How did you get into self-care? I grew up with a lot of beautiful, strong folks that didn’t care for themselves and I wanted to be beautiful, strong and well nourished. When I was 16 I went hiking at Mt. Baldy in California and I had never hiked before or been out in nature that long, and I remember thinking I had never felt my lungs in that way or smelled or saw in that way before, and even though we got lost and we were out there for 16 hours, I committed that I would do that again, that I would keep finding that clearing and I aspire to that every day although I don’t always do it well.
  3. What are challenges in maintaining self-care? It begins and ends with capitalism and white supremacy and it's hard for me to use these big words because I don’t want to alienate anyone, but it does encompass my experience as an indigenous person in the U.S. For example, there are laws that prohibit people from burning things in a building so I can’t have certain devotional practices inside. And in this society time is seen as scarce and every moment and every day is a marathon. This society promotes the hamster wheel of trying to get paid to pay this, and time is viewed as a cycle of death whether economical or spiritual. It’s pretty painful and I’m working to unlearn this relationship with time and remember that we come from a people that weaved this universe together, a people that didn’t believe in time yet created the number 0. I'm trying to undo this misconception so that my seeds aren't born in this way. 
  4. How do you share self-care with others? It’s taken me a while to do this with integrity for myself and my practice, it’s challenging to not show up as an all-sacrificing mother while taking care of others. I go through spells of protecting myself and paying attention to how I nourish myself because I've realized that I deserve that. I’ve moved to a place where I am balanced enough that I can share with others. I share through birth keeping, helping those with postpartum, sharing song and herbal medicine and leading an herbal apprenticeship.